September 24, 2012
August 15, 2012
Heart stopping words
I read with amazement my sisters blog, Who Knew. Such a talented writer, with some of her prose calling a need in me to find my way across the miles to see her soon. I should. You find out late in life that those most valuable to you are those whom you too often leave on the edges of your life.
I read quite a bit of her notes, and got lost in her “things to be thankful for” posts. It is a tender person who can look at everyday moments and put them into the soul’s hope chest. I wonder if she knows how rich her life is, how grateful her older brother is of the man she placed her aspirations, the beauty her family sees in the colorful tales of her children, and joy of three daughters (one is on her way in the next day!). I wonder if she knows I will forever be jealous of her. She is the creator of three angelic girls and I, of three boys.
When I read these words my brother wrote about me, tears poured down my cheeks. I had no idea he felt that way, nor that he was willing verbalize those feelings so eloquently. I hope he doesn't mind I posted them here, where I have some say in saving them and holding them close to my heart.
When I read these words my brother wrote about me, tears poured down my cheeks. I had no idea he felt that way, nor that he was willing verbalize those feelings so eloquently. I hope he doesn't mind I posted them here, where I have some say in saving them and holding them close to my heart.
August 11, 2012
Not for the children
Spoiler alert: make sure no one under their teen years is reading over your shoulder
Updates of the last few months? Nah, I will just go with what is in my heart and on my mind, so prepare for the random.
- I rest my hands on my 40 week pregnant belly as I write and cherish the last few day or hours of protecting and growing my 3rd baby under my heart, within my own body, as I feel her stretch and roll.
-I cherish watching my oldest grow in her independence as she starts 3rd grade... How could that be already??
- Our 2nd child is going to struggle with new baby. She is blossoming in her language and independence. She may be the Tomboy Daddy hopes for. She is also amazingly empathetic, patting my check and asking if I am ok.
My big asked me flat out for the truth about Christmas presents and Easter eggs. My heart broke as I dodged the question. I was not ready. I talked with the daddy late that night about how to handle this. I won't lie to my children. She asked SPECIFICALLY for me to tell the truth, as her friends at school were talking about it... We didn't think "what do you think" would cut it this time. I didn't want her to be humiliated in front of her friends if she insisted, and then found out she was wrong. So, when we were alone, I brought it up, tried not to panic (or cry) and told her the truth. She was quiet. And a little sad, I think. I swore her into the Helpers club, made her raise her right hand and made her a full- fledged member of the helpers, and to keeping the secret - she promised never to tell the truth to anyone but her own children when she was the mommy - not sisters, cousins, friends. We even rehearsed appropriate responses if one of them asks her. She asked who else was in the club, And I said, you never know, so you can't talk about it... But told her mommy and daddy for sure... So she asked how I found out... And told her my mom was in the club too. So, we pulled into the drive, got out with both our hearts a little broken, but proud of my growing-up girl. And she rushed in to pull her dad aside to tell him she was in the club, while I pulled grandma aside to warn her...
We discussed that she learned three things:
1. the answer to her question
2. That I will always tell her the truth
3. That you be sure you want the answer before you ask the question. She kinda laughed... And said "I am so not asking about the tooth fairy for a few years!"
The timing - my big is maturing so quickly as my littlest is waiting to be born...Sigh.
Love,
Me
Updates of the last few months? Nah, I will just go with what is in my heart and on my mind, so prepare for the random.
- I rest my hands on my 40 week pregnant belly as I write and cherish the last few day or hours of protecting and growing my 3rd baby under my heart, within my own body, as I feel her stretch and roll.
-I cherish watching my oldest grow in her independence as she starts 3rd grade... How could that be already??
- Our 2nd child is going to struggle with new baby. She is blossoming in her language and independence. She may be the Tomboy Daddy hopes for. She is also amazingly empathetic, patting my check and asking if I am ok.
My big asked me flat out for the truth about Christmas presents and Easter eggs. My heart broke as I dodged the question. I was not ready. I talked with the daddy late that night about how to handle this. I won't lie to my children. She asked SPECIFICALLY for me to tell the truth, as her friends at school were talking about it... We didn't think "what do you think" would cut it this time. I didn't want her to be humiliated in front of her friends if she insisted, and then found out she was wrong. So, when we were alone, I brought it up, tried not to panic (or cry) and told her the truth. She was quiet. And a little sad, I think. I swore her into the Helpers club, made her raise her right hand and made her a full- fledged member of the helpers, and to keeping the secret - she promised never to tell the truth to anyone but her own children when she was the mommy - not sisters, cousins, friends. We even rehearsed appropriate responses if one of them asks her. She asked who else was in the club, And I said, you never know, so you can't talk about it... But told her mommy and daddy for sure... So she asked how I found out... And told her my mom was in the club too. So, we pulled into the drive, got out with both our hearts a little broken, but proud of my growing-up girl. And she rushed in to pull her dad aside to tell him she was in the club, while I pulled grandma aside to warn her...
We discussed that she learned three things:
1. the answer to her question
2. That I will always tell her the truth
3. That you be sure you want the answer before you ask the question. She kinda laughed... And said "I am so not asking about the tooth fairy for a few years!"
The timing - my big is maturing so quickly as my littlest is waiting to be born...Sigh.
Love,
Me
March 8, 2012
I havent posted in a while... And this post is more of a promise to myself to find some time soon- however with masters courses and end of year Evals fast approaching, time is at a premium around here. Not to mention I tired all the time and chasing 2 active kids all the time! But my girls are going through do many changes I and it is on myind to chronicle them here!
Lots of love to all in the meantime -- see you real soon
Lots of love to all in the meantime -- see you real soon
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